Waiting

12 hours from now I will be waking up to fly to New York and begin what I hope is a summer of experience. If you are anything like me, life as I know it can be a real snooze fest sometimes. Sure, I have lots of things that I enjoy, but at the end of the day am I truly happy? To be honest, usually the answer is no. Instead, life sometimes feels like these fleeting moments of purpose during which you align with the Father's will for your life for just a momentary spot in time. The rest of the time is just kinda blah. This could just be me. Someone once told me "normal life doesn't work to well for you." Don't get me wrong, college has been fun. It just seems like my heart is in waiting mode. Because this "normal life" doesn't seem to motivate me, I find myself waiting on a life that is far from normal. I want to experience the wildness and purpose that comes from walking in a spirit of oneness with Jesus Christ. I am ready for a calling and a purpose.

And now I get to go to Kenya. I get to be around the poor, the needy. I will interact with those who should have no hope, no reason for living. Peoples whose needs are so drastic it will be unlike anything I have ever experienced. However, in the Lord there is beauty in everything and I so look forward to witnessing beauty in these places. Mostly I desire a new heart. I have this idea or image of myself and who I want to be, however the harder I try to get there, the harder being that man becomes. I hope to experience new and exciting things as the Lord moves in my heart and molds me into the man he has designed me to be.

This is my journey friends. It should be a fun one this summer.